Sunday, February 28, 2010


Okiee I'm still IN LOVE with Ben.
But I know we will NEVER be together.

Is it wrong to at least want him in my life?
I want to be friends with him.
It's true that love for someone does fade away.
My love for Ben has faded away a little but it's still there.
I don't know how I'm only going to be friends with him, but I know that's all we can be!
To think about it hurts and still makes me cry.
That's why I ignore it!
I ignore how I truly feel.
I know no matter how much I wish for it to be different it won't be.
When ever I hear a song about how I felt when I was with him or whenever I think of him I cry!
I truly WISH with all my heart that we could be together and that it was different but it's NOT!
And that hurts!
I'm still IN LOVE with him.
I wish I could make it go away.
Because it really hurts to love someone and not be able to be with them.
 And the worst part about all of this
Is that the way I feel for Ben and how much I LOVE him, is the exact same way he feels about Savannah!
I WISH he felt that way about me but he doesn't!
 I've tried to be with other guys and I've been in a relationship
But I couldn't stop thinking about Ben...
I just WISH with ALL my HEART 
that he felt the way I feel for him. 
But he doesn't!
That's the other sucky part about all of this.
Wishing doesn't change anything
Wishing doesn't change anyone.


Okaykayluhh said...

"I wish I could make it go away."
Well I'm sure hanging out with him doesn't help.

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